11 Aug I Give It Up to God
Id hate to come in and start dumping my mess on you from the gate.
But, y’all.
Yall.
Ive been having a hard time at work.
Allan and I had a fight. It got kind of ugly pretty quickly.
And on top of all this, I was PMS-ing.
Because, when it rains it pours.
I took the first of the month as a sign to wipe the slate clean. Ive been here before. I know how it feels when something is no longer serving me. Its time to let go.
I know the power that words have. The Bible says there is life and death in the tongue. And yet, Ive been struggling. I am not was not speaking life over my current situation or my desires. I was taking things as they came. Being reactive instead of proactive.
I spent August 1st with my girlfriends. But the second? I prayed hard for the strength to follow through what was in my heart. For God to align my plans with his.
Tuesday, an actual week after everything kicked off, I got my sign(s) loud and clear.
I stood up, left my desk, went into the bathroom, closed the door to the stall and prayed. I thanked God for hearing me. Thanked God for working in my favor.
I emailed this woman back in 2012. I told her that I found her an interview of hers that spoke to me, in the place that I was in: broken and unsure of myself. If ever she was looking for fashion writers, please, I asked, keep me in mind. I would love to contribute.
She emailed me last Tuesday. Shes launching a new venture and I wanted to know if I wanted to build out her fashion and beauty content. Obviously I did. She even referenced my email from way back then. Id forgotten all about it.
Wearing: Glamorous Crop Top via Piperlime// H&M Circle Skirt// Zara Wedges// Deux Lux Studded Clutch// Marc Jacobs Lovemarc Lip Gel in Role Play// Illamasqua Nail Polish in Rare
I walked out of the stall and looked at myself in the mirror. Really looked at myself. I wished I had my phone. I wanted to take a picture. A millennial thing to do but I wanted record of this moment. Record of the shift. Id felt it for a week or so. But this confirmed it.
I wanted to remember this day. My face, my outfit, the actual moment knew that it would be okay. [inlinetweet prefix=”” tweeter=”via @chan_inthecity” suffix=””]God didnt forget me.[/inlinetweet] Or my blog. And both were still working for my benefit.
I went to see Big Sean and J. Cole in concert later that night. The two rappers took a page out of book and championed the importance of dreaming.
The importance of believing in yourself, and further the God that you serve.
I couldn’t wait to go home and pray on my knees.
When it rains it pours, but I guess Yasmein was right. The same can be said for blessings (on blessings on blessings ?).
?: Angel Lenise
K.
Posted at 00:21h, 13 AugustThis made me smile 🙂
Unexpected blessings are just incredible.
ChanningintheCity
Posted at 11:18h, 14 AugustThey really are. I’m so excited. And I KNOW you have to be.
Steph
Posted at 23:22h, 14 AugustLove this! So happy to see that things all came together for you. Thanks for sharing this. Gives me hope. 🙂
ChanningintheCity
Posted at 01:10h, 17 AugustYes, it will come together for you too! It always does when you least expect it (or honestly, can’t take anymore). Thank you for stopping by 🙂 I hope you’re well!
Melanie Smith
Posted at 20:06h, 17 AugustGlad it worked out!!
ChanningintheCity
Posted at 23:08h, 18 AugustThank you, Melanie!
ShesFacingFreedom
Posted at 20:01h, 25 AugustI’m so happy things are turning around for you. You really deserve it and I can’t wait to see how this shift helps you achieve other goals.
ChanningintheCity
Posted at 09:28h, 26 AugustThank you, Yaszy! I can’t wait to see what’s next for you after YOUR shift!